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Songs from the Sidelines

by Crush Limbo

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Once, when I was walking down the street, I saw you there. You were dressed rather discreetly, all in black but you wore it with flair. I asked if you were in mourning. You smiled and said, “No. It’s late afternoon.” I tried to say something charming The words weren’t there and you left too soon. Yes, you went your way, I went mine. this tale might have ended right there. But a terrible wind swept through the land spreading sorrow and grief everywhere. They asked that we stay inside— self quarantine, shelter in place. “For the sake of all—countrywide— Please wash your hands; don’t touch your face!” Time did pass, as did many a soul— young and old; all colors and creeds. We swallowed our fears and we choked back tears Singing hymns and fingering beads. I tried to listen—to keep my distance. I did my part and kept apart from the outside world. Even though I so wanted to meet you girl. Soon, the grey clouds parted Lockdown lifted, We left our homes But we looked more like specters then, as we crept from our catacombs When I started walking down the street, I saw you there. You were dressed rather discreetly, save for the dead flower in your hair. I asked if you were in mourning. You smiled and said, “No. It’s late afternoon.” ’twas then, with nary a warning, I felt something bloom and a weary heart swoon. Once when I was walking down the street I saw you there. You were dressed rather discreetly, save for the dead flower in your hair.
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I was drinking last night in a dream by the light of a silvery beam. I stopped tippling last year, but my id still drinks beer, and I don’t feel the need to intervene. I was thinking things aren’t as they seem; and that facts get distorted by memes. Before truth gets its shoes on a lie’s got 10 million views on the box that glues eyes to its screen. And hunches may be good things to go on when you’re sure you can win, place or show on that mudder in the seventh race a day after rains. But throwing good money after bad, because you can’t admit you’ve been had, on a bet you should never have placed — Well, that’s just sad. More than a little insane. I was drinking last night in a dream; my thoughts, merely droplets in a beam. Though I suffered from thirst I watched each bubble burst, brewing notions without any theme. And I’m thinking some ideas are like tumors, feeding on slander and rumor. Before truth gets its shoes on Dad’s got the news on, and the windbags are venting their spleen. And hunches may be good things to go on when you’re sure you can win, place or show on that mudder in the seventh race a day after rains. But throwing good money after bad, because you can’t admit you’ve been had, on a bet you should never have placed — Well, that’s just sad. More than a little insane. I was drinking last night in a dream by the light of a silvery meme. I stopped tippling last year but my id still drinks beer and I don’t feel the need to intervene.
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Woke up  with a new wave  hair do Contemplating  the ineffable I used to glide through life unafraid-- believing all  was possible. If I were dissuaded I could side step  the naysayers, rally the ne’er do ‘ells on my way  to paradise. Now I think  I might get stuck a few stops short, somewhere south  of Eden where the air’s  not so nice. Woke up  in the new caged curfew — isolated and unlovable. I used to glide through life unafraid, believing all  was possible. Now I’m not so sure a tainted heart can be pure inoculate inure until they find a cure. Woke up with a new wave hairdo renovating the inevitable.
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The sun is sinking moon is rising i should be deciding whether to tell her goodbye i’d usually be drinking but i told her i was thinking … i told her i was thinking of staying dry I’m a libertine destroyer of all that she takes joy in and yet I’m the doyen in whom she believes and we fall into a fantasy that she bound to rescue me i was found and now im free from the devil and the deep blue sea What lies in wait in the brave new world/ when you go beyond the gates of this sanctuary, girl? There’s never any guarantee all your oysters will have pearls but it’s the chance you gotta take gotta give it a whirl
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Dimocracy 03:11
We’re wading through a swamp of toxicity Sadly, it’s becoming apparent to me the only ones who have the ability to change it are too dumb to notice its their reality … TV Let me state this unequivocally: We perpetrate a false equivalency when we give equal time to con artists and crackpots — when we refuse to call bullshit on their lies They say that the State should stay out of their lives; they won’t abide by mandates so the prone can survive. An eye for an eye leaves everyone blind Common sense on its death bed while ignorance thrives. A gamble that’s endured two-hundred plus years Preamble ignored through a trail of endless tears Hope we might achieve a more perfect union disappearing fast; no guarantee this thing will last. It’s mourning in America; time to say good night. Despite all those souls dying for our rights, Democracy is dwindling, disappearing without a fight. Will the last one left standing, please turn out the lights. They say that the State should stay out of their lives; they don’t want to end up at a gunfight with knives. An eye for an eye leaves everyone blind. Common sense on its death bed while ignorance thrives Living in dimocracy the light so faint I cannot see Living in dimocracy it’s dwindling now. Can’t you see? Living in dimocracy Living in dimocracy.
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Liberated man you can’t understand — you’re just a pawn in some other man’s game. So, take your number, you’ll die just the same. You’re just a toy a political ploy — a sacrificial lamb for the new Dark Age; a weapon and tool for the demagogue’s rage. [chorus] We’ve been down this road before; (We’ve) seen profit seekers and carnivores size us up like mince for the grinding mill. And we don’t always need to agree but the numbers are plain to see Ignoring the facts is no brave act of free will. Yes, the onerous task of donning a mask is a burden some patriots just won’t bear. They show who they are and just how much they care. But they’ve got to be free They say, “Don’t tread on me.” No way we’ll "baa!" like the rest of you sheep. But freedom is duty, my friends— it ain’t cheap! [chorus] We’ve been down this road before; (We’ve) seen profit seekers and carnivores size us up like mince for the grinding mill. And we don’t always need to agree But the numbers are plain to see Ignoring the facts Is no act of free will.
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Passing by a window where we once dined; seeing only my reflection an ominous sign: Chairs on the table Where we once sat; Not even any scraps For a dirty street rat. Passing grim milestones, too many dead and counting. Passing on the blame, the new form of accounting. The situation now is getting grotesque. Some might say it’s rather Kafkaesque  [Chorus] Courage? You won’t find it; It’s best not to look when the one who sits behind it is a despot and a crook. Might just be time  to put that fable to rest:  “The buck stops here at the Resolute Desk!” A plague was approaching He said, “No big deal: it’s a hoax, a plot— it’s not even real!” Bodies piled up He said, “Do not fear; one day soon this will all disappear.” [Chorus] Courage? You won’t find it; best not to look when the one who sits behind it  is a despot; a crook. Might just be time  to put that fable to rest:  “The buck stops here at the Resolute Desk!” [bridge] 140 thousand drops of water  in an ocean The number seems small When plopped into that quotient But some of those drops  Were tears behind a glass Because hugs and kisses Weren’t let through to pass They say that the eyes are portals to the soul Do yours empathize or are they just black holes? When you pass by a window,  tell me, what do you see? Do you say to your reflection, “That could have been me?” Demands total authority, takes no responsibility;  Wants fealty and puffery Knows not duty nor humility. The situation now is beyond grotesque You might say It’s become Kafkaesque [chorus 2x]
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Deep State 03:12
Where are you now?  in the deep state. Crisis actors How they factor in your fantasies. Puppet masters, false flag disasters and conspiracies Student victim, you mocked and kicked him in your twitter war. You’re so sure he’s 35 w/ a SAG card and a headshot ... and a flesh wound a flesh wound Where are you now? (in the deep state) Where are you now? (in a deep state of delusion and confusion) Are we pawns moved by a hand we cannot see ... willing agents in a shadowy bureaucracy? Is a covert network orchestrating our reality? Take your guns away! Look out! They’ll take your guns away! [bridge] With your flak jackets and your war game weekends -- faux persecution that never ends. Follow me, if you will, across the astral plain, through the byzantine byways of the shrinking brain. I dream I'm in an altered state: the break in at the Watergate Where are you now? When we seize power, If it all goes sour, we’ll need someone to blame Someone to blame Someone to blame I’m fully loaded; I’m wiretapped. They’ve bugged my brain and they’re going zap! Where are you now? (in the deep state) Where are you now? (in the deep state) (in the deep state of denial_ Freedom from want (denial) Freedom to go to Fuddruckers if you want (denial) (denial) (denial) Freedom to own two tigers if you want.
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Stinky old man in the seedy bus depot, heavy-lidded eyes and head hanging low. I ain’t tellin’ you nothin’ you don’t already know. You, too, hold your nose as you quickly come and go. Yes, it’s easy for our eyes to pass over this man. He’s got nothing we want, as he holds out his hand. You might even say he deserves what he got, that the choices he’s made are what determined his lot. Before you pass him by Before you turn a blind eye Give him more than just a head shake and sigh But for fate or fortune there we’d sit, you or I Yes, you might even say he deserves what he got Which, when all is said and done, ain’t a hell of a lot. Would it surprise you to learn some tough breaks factored in, ones that caused him to turn to the whiskey and gin? Lost a job, then a house he mostly saved for on his own. Devil bargain with Faust was that “low-interest” loan. Ab Eb Bb Before you pass him by Don’t you turn a blind eye Ab Eb Bb Give him more than just F Bb a head shake and sigh Ab Eb Bb Ah, but for a turn of fortune F Or fate C# Ab F goes you and I [Solo] Gm F# Fmin Ebmaj7 Gm F# Fmin Ebmaj7 C I told myself, more than a quick toss of change, I’d pause next time I saw him just to ask him his name. A week or so later all but gone was the stench, and gone, too, was the man who lived on the bench. Replaced by a kiosk With brochures selling homes Saying: “All this could be yours with a low-interest loan.” Before you pass him by Don’t turn a blind eye Give him more than A head shake and sigh Yes before you pass him by Don’t you turn a blind eye For there but for a turn of fate or fortune goes you and I.
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As it drifts into one long day no more colors only shades of grey you’re seeing things in a different way While the plague hangs heavy in the air all the masks that you will or won’t wear are a measure of how much you care. And It really didn’t take very long to know that you were doing it wrong all along. And you strain to recall what matters as your belly just keeps getting fatter and you’re staring at the lumps in the batter For the pancakes you haven’t earned the calories you’ve yet to burn. and the bread you’re planning to bake before you’ve even finished your cake. maybe you’ve learned to give and not just take And it really didn’t take so long to understand you’ve been doing it all wrong Now you’re running out of fucks to give But honey, this is now the way we live! You’re both running out of things to say as it drifts into another day And you worry that what truly matters is getting lost in the endless natter Dear Leader, well, he’s mad as a hatter and your sanity is left in tatters And she says It gonna take a bit longer you know, but we’re comin’ out this thing wiser and stronger But it really didn’t take so long to realize you’ve been doing it all wrong I know you’re running out of fucks to give But honey, this is now the way you live! This is now the way we live.
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The slow motion marching of an alabaster body haloed by the dust-heavy light of its leaving. In the pauses of dissonant, unearthly strings, you hear Death breathing, waiting in the wings of a chrysalis butterfly. You hear Death breathing, waiting in the wings tonight. Vinyl-grooved zig zags. Silver-streaked pants. The sylphlike limbs that preened and pranced. Now coffined they rest. They still wear them best. You hear Death breathing, waiting in the wings of a chrysalis butterfly. The universe is cleaving, heaving a sigh as it sings tonight. The slow motion marching of an alabaster body haloed by the dust-heavy light of its leaving. In the pauses of dissonant, unearthly strings, you hear Death breathing, waiting in the wings of a chrysalis butterfly. You can hear Death breathing, waiting in the wings tonight. Yes, you hear Death breathing, waiting in the wings tonight.
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Time Passes 03:09
Time passes  and the people  you love go, too. 
Even those
 you didn't know so well seem dear to you. The timeless icons of our youth have all succumbed to an awful truth:   One day we'll  all be gone; that's something  we can't outrun. Sometimes  the creaking pier sounds a melody  and the voices  in the universe call out to me: 
 Drop your plans follow what you hear sit on the dock and have a beer. one day you will  be gone; that's one thing  you can't outrun. So, what can you do, but believe in your own myth then find someone to destroy it with? Everyday things;  the worm-fresh feel of spring. Roll your sleeves up and dig in. Roll up your sleeves to begin. Mend the diorama river with a dab of glue Fix the moment fast, before it rushes past your view. The timeless icons of your youth have all succumbed to an awful truth:   One day we will  all be gone; that's one thing  we can't outrun.
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**Be sure to check out sister release Songs from the Bench, too! crushlimbo.bandcamp.com/album/songs-from-the-bench

The songs that wound up on the sister releases *Songs from the Sidelines* and *Songs from the Bench* started as a way to pass the time and relieve stress during the 2020 pandemic. As it had done during other turbulent times in my life, writing and playing music helped me work through pent up frustration, fear, and uncertainty.

I can't remember which song came first -- maybe "Once, When We Were Walking"? -- but pretty soon I had a gaggle of tunes elbowing each other for my attention. Since they were primarily written and recorded during quarantine, and since I've long felt comfortably distanced from mainstream attention or acclaim, "from the sidelines" and "from the bench" seemed apt titles for the song collections that emerged after a few months of woodshedding.

Initially, when I intended to put all nineteen tracks on one record, I got some grandiose notion of a concept record with a story arc documenting the state of my world and the world at large in spring/ summer 2020. Eventually, I abandoned the concept and just threw the lot of 'em onto two discs, somewhat arbitrarily.

But one thing for sure is that both albums contain songs of isolation, longing, loss, heartbreak, sorrow and dread with notes of triumph and hope sprinkled in for good measure (I had to do a cover to truly check the "hope" box). Together, they stand as a pretty good document of what I've thought and felt during the long months of contagion (has it been months or years?).

Anyway, I hope you find something to grab onto among the lot of 'em.

Cheers!

Colm, a.k.a Crush

07/09/20

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released July 9, 2020

All instruments, vocals and original cover art by Colm Clark

Mixed and mastered by Colm Clark (talk about DIY, Jeez Louise!)

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Crush Limbo North Bergen, New Jersey

Crush Limbo is the stage name of NY-NJ-based musician Colm Clark.

It's bedroom pop meets Tin Pan Alley -- a world where glam gets it on with André Popp, teasing midlife symphonies from tear-shaped guordalins.

And in the grand tradition of Sondheim, Wonder, Bowie, and the Beatles — melody is key, baby, and tunes are where it's at.
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